I don't know why it bothers me how much you are so in love with him. Part of it is most likely envy, but I'm also sure that a part of it is that I am afraid you will get hurt.
I'm sorry. I'm not trying to send mixed signals. It's just that I'm comfortable with the way things were between us and I can't help but feeling slightly rejected because we have to give up these few things that should be insignificant but aren't. I'm sorry for letting my insecurities get between you two. I came up here thinking I could be with you, but now we're only in the same room.
I'm trying to be honest about my feelings without being confusing, but I am confused. I'm not sure why I'm feeling whatever the hell it is and I don't know why it bothers me so much.
I think I really need to get unfucked up.