||[Feb. 16th, 2008|09:28 pm]
Don't accuse me of playing mindgames. That's the same bullshit my father pulled on my mom.
Don't compare me to your demeaning ex. I never said anything negative about you physically to you or towards you. I complimented you all the time and told you you looked cute. I will not be blamed for your self-esteem issues. I don't play to a person's ego.
*hugs* i'm always here for you hun!
Thanks Melly. *hugs*
I thought about phoning you last night.
I know how it feels to have someone you care about always comparing you to their ex or another negative person in their life. It's like they can't except being loved. They're used to being treated like shit and they push people away if they don't treat them badly.
It's not even an "always" thing. What hurts the most is that there's no truth in it, and if she really believes such bad things about me, why the hell did she say she loved me? It's my father all over again.
I can't even talk to my therapist about this, cuz he just brushes it off. Both times I've tried to bring it up all he says is "she's bisexual" and "she's borderline".
I agree with you on the last part. It felt like she always was looking for something wrong. I was afraid of her because I never knew what might set her off. She's always dumping me and blaming me for whatever reason. I don't cope well with people being angry at me.
I hope this makes some sense. I
It made perfect sense.
I don't know. I think people use the term "love" too quickly and freely. Most people don't really know what love is, so I don't know why they feel the need to say it. I don't know about other people, but I can't trust when people tell me that they love me. In my experience, most people don't mean it.
Well, we've known each other since third grade, I don't know how much slower you can get than that, but I know what you mean.