||[Nov. 1st, 2007|03:07 pm]
Had a really great day with my mom. I think we are finally developing a more adult relationship (as opposed to parent/child), which is good for both of us. I (finally) gave her a copy of my poetry book. I hadn't given her one when I first printed them, because I was worried that her reading about my pain might make her feel guilty. She thought "Porn to sleep by" was cute. :) She says my writing reminds her of Leonard Cohen? I don't know who that is. She also suggested that I give a copy to my aunt, which I think I will.
Was rather emotional last night. Blasted Collective Soul, Our Lady Peace, NIN and sang my head off. Listened to "Ghost to ghost" while falling asleep.
I cut up a worn out pair of pajama pants. I have an idea of making a patchwork quilt one of these days, but first I need "patches", so I was cutting my pants up into squares. It felt rather destructive, even though the pants were no longer wearable.
Got to see my oma today. I think she gets upset that it is so long in between visits. I think she was asking where I have been. Other than gesturing and intonation, her speech has deteriorated to incomprehensible sounds. I don't think she is actually forming words very much, other than "yah" or "neh".
I've been thinking about highschool friends that I have sort of lost touch with but still have contact with. I am not sure if I should try to rebuild/revive relationships, or just let them be. Some of them express interest in getting together, but are they just being polite? I fear that I will bore them in person. Is the limited contact we do have enough? I can't help but wonder, since it's not like anyone else is making a full out effort in reconnecting.
Last night, I was reminiscing about the good ol' days of email relationships, before blogs and IM. Don't get me wrong, both are great. I have met so many wonderful friends through LiveJournal and IM is convenient; I just miss what used to be.