|huge bpd mood
||[Oct. 22nd, 2006|04:31 pm]
I feel like all I am doing is trying to pick fights with my bf. I should be happy for joe but I am thinking that now he has a girl he will have even less time to work on the rp with me. (I would have told him this directly, but he isn't online). I guess I'm just in a very self-destructive mode. I've been doing too well for too long and I need to fuck up to know I still have an impact on the world.
I wish I could write on my own, but I suck at it. I wish I could escape into an alt reality on my own, but I can't do anything by myself. And it is highly possible that this mood has been brought on by the large amount of social interaction I have been exposing myself to.
I just want to cry.