You've stuck it out so long, why give up now? I'm just so tired. I'm tired of trying. I don't want to try anymore.
Right now I'm not consciously planning to die, but maybe subconsciously I am. This purging without and within.
I think you are attractive. I think a life with you could be enjoyable, but I know that that life only exists in my dreams. I don't even know you yet. Could I be falling in love with you? I know it'll hurt you. I know you won't understand, but I have to do what's right for myself. Maybe it is time to start over.
I'm reaching a dilemma with my posts. Those who read them will think it is about them, when it isn't, and the ones it is about, they won't realise it.