How can I be such a fuck-up?
How do you forgive yourself for ruining the best relationship you ever had?
How do you forgive yourself for being oblivious to someone's feelings for you?
Why am I always "too little too late"? By the time I realise what is going on, to express my feelings seems selfish and destructive.
This is when things really matter.
The rest of the time, I let myself get used, just so I can feel something, or play pretend in my head.
I want to be krayzee so I don't have to feel anything. "...it must be real, the pain we feel..."
Fill me up with pills that heal my head but not my heart. Heart-ache is the worst emotion ever.