December 26th, 2004

flight

"I miss your purple hair; I miss the way you taste..."

I can't write happy endings.

Even when we wrote childrens' stories the ones I wrote, the endings were sad. (The kid's pet dies.)

Okay, this is gonna be really stupid, and if you don't understand, don't bother asking... I wish I could be her again (I miss your purple hair; I miss the way you taste...), but I can't be here because he will never be him again. I longed for it, how nice it would be. Then my mind slips into taking things too far. Not just sexual RP, but letting it develop into dissociative identity... Yeah, I've been having some pretty crazy thoughts lately. And odd experiences as well.

At least with the last story, there was some finality and revenge. This fell apart, it's so fucking reflective. I really hated other games where they'd make a new char ever 3 events. [insert frustration noises here].

Too tired to finish this post, but I knew I couldn't sleep without writing something first.

I pray you don't burn out, or fade away
flight

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This isn't right. I'm not supposed to be here. This isn't the way things are supposed to be.

I've been subsisting off of grapes, christmas oranges, and honey nut cheerios.

My mother isn't my mother anymore, and it isn't fair to depend on my sister for my life.

Subtle things. Yes, I don't fit in. I do not belong here. I thought I could. But the things said... and you'll bring me home in the end, even though I never had one

I haven't been right all day, I tghink it's lack of sleep.
  • Current Music
    My Happy Ending - Avril Levigne
flight

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I would just like to say... FUCK YOU. For all your talk of "loving" me and shit, and you don't even fucking e-mail me for like 2 fucking weeks??? Right, I am so fucking sure. Buddy, your idea of love is DEFINATELY NOT the same as mine.
  • Current Music
    Somewhere Out There - OLP