September 25th, 2004

flight

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Well, I thought that my "friends" from Cambridge were gonna come down and see me today, but apparently they are just hanging out there instead. So now I feel like crap and am going to sleep the rest of the day. I hate being sober! I was gonna go see the parade with some of my housemates but now I feel too much like crap. I am going to sleep.
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flight

For Adam

she takes the six o'clock train
its off to work and then home again
she wonders if this will ever change
clutching her pillow she hides in a dark
room in her heart

how long has it been
since love touched her and she let in
chased out the shadows, filled emptiness
with her head in her hands she cries
"come back again, i need you my friend"

we fight on our knees
but don't often see
the battles that rage being won
but fight on until
and tarry until
love comes to carry us on


so many holes here within
torn apart and then blown by the wind
hell and high-water come crashing in
pride says to fight but he cannot defend this means to an end

the truth cuts like a blade
bleeding all of the plans that he made
nothing but faith in the one who came
can ever bring peace to the spirit again
will he understand

we fight on our knees
for those who might see
the battle is over, its won
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    Fight - PFR
flight

This is me.

she wallows in her misery
what made her think that this would be
that this would be any different
from the first mistake she made
still she dove without a care
for the second time around she'll pay

and wallow in her misery
the first to fail the last to flee
she thought she'd figured out the answer
to some long forgotten page
from some long forgotten book
on how to get her own way

i've tried and tried to tell her
it's not what you do
it's what you've done
with what you did
i've tried to tell her

she wallows in her misery
a failure at failure she fails to see
that this overacted part
from this never-ending play
is just her substitute
for reality anyway


i've tried and tried to tell her
it's not what you do
it's what you've done
with what you did
i've tried to tell her
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    Tried to Tell Her - PFR
flight

Them = you?

and the band marches on and on without slowing
and their leader leads them on and on without knowing
never looking back to see the mess that they had left behind

the media mediates between the masses and the myth it creates
but it never know the damage grown the more it bend the truth

they tell us what they want us to hear
the patronize our aching ears

it's all too clear the wealth's of violence and sexual perversion
offer more than just some innocent psychological diversion
they have left so many bleeding, needing help from christ the king

we don't have to watch what they want us to see
yet we've let them bind our hands and our feet

how can you say, "let's all remain unaffected," when no lines were drawn
the band just marches on
and they forget you when you fall down
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    Them - PFR
flight

Who knew christian music would be so apt to depression?

you know for certain that you are a liar
you told me yourself you know the truth
but you won't put two and two together
you know the sum would expose you

and you wonder why you feel this way
and you wonder how long it will take to heal
and you wonder what you did to get here
and you wonder who will save you from you

you've tried everything that has been in your reach
but none of it seems to satisfy
so like a man lost at sea
your thirst leads you to drink the water
the more you drink, the more your throat runs dry
and you wonder why

and you wonder why you feel this way
and you wonder how long it will take to heal
and you wonder what you did to get here
and you wonder who will save you from you
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    Wonder Why - PFR
flight

What I wish

let me go back
and do it all over again
what i know now
i wish i knew then
there's a pain
that just will not die


let me hear you say it's okay
let me hear you say it's alright
i could really use some words of comfort
so i won't be alone tonight

so i won't be alone tonight

let me move on
i've said I was sorry
help me look out
and see the sun again
'cause there's a pain
that somehow MUST die
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    Say - PFR
flight

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I know I posted a lot of songs. That's sometimes the only way I can figure out what I'm feeling. I was so mad today about Graham. I slept for a few hours, not really sleeping tho. I got up to let my roomate in cuz she didn't have her key. OMG, last night was hell for her. Anyway, I'm not gonna say much, but she keeps asking me why I want to SI and tells me it's stupid. Well, I don't know how much more stupid than being a user... not that I think anything about it, I just don't think either is better than the other.
Dave apparently can't find where I've posted about him. Maybe he'll find this part. :P

Well, I would post about my e-mail, but once again I HAVE NONE! *cries*
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