July 6th, 2003


These dreams are driving me crazy

I don't want to sleep because I know I'll have wacked out dreams.
When I wake up I can't figure out if I remember something because I dreamt it or if I dreamt that I remembered something.
Something similar: I can't figure out if I've dreamt something before or if I'm only dreaming that I dreamt it before. ARGH!!!
I swear I've been experiencing a disproportionate amount of REM while I do sleep. Sometimes I can't wake up, other times I only sleep for 4 hours.
Most of the dreams involve people/situations I know. One I had today was that Chris Grensberg lived across the street from my mom's old house. Another involved Kalena on a Star Trek like set. The one I woke up during was a school play where I did not know my part nor what I was supposed to be doing. I've had a similar dream before where I was doing a musical in middle school and I didn't know the dance steps.

So once again I am tired but do not want to sleep. I think sleep has always been a curse for me. I deprive myself, then I get insomnia, now I want anything not to sleep.

Even the basement is too warm.

Life is so subjective.

(no subject)

Great green globs or greasy, grimy gopher guts
mutilated monkey meat
little birdies' dirty feet
great green globs or greasy, grimy gopher guts
and I forgot my spoon!
  • Current Music
    what I just posted

For Michelle

And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare - don't worry me
'Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head
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    All the Things She Said - t.A.T.u.