December 13th, 2002


I trust you.

I just wanted to say that to those who are encouraging me to go down this path, I trust you.
I have never been so scared in my life. Not even the time I almost fell off a cliff. But I am going to walk this road, no matter how terrifying it gets and take comfort in the fear.
This seems so difficult, taking these steps. Especially when I feel alone. But I am beginning to learn when to buckle up and face things on my own and when to ask for help. Everyone needs help sometimes, I've been told that, but I think in the past I was leaning too much. Especially since the majority of those willing to support me have their own weaknesses they need support for.
Wow. That reminds me of that tree poem I wrote in grade eight.
So the doctor basically gave me a choice between Paxil and Celexa. I took Celexa, it scares me less. I have heard too much bad things about Paxil. It kinda traumatised me to read the profile they have on me there. It makes everything so impersonal.
I think part of what makes this entire direction so difficult is that I'm admitting that I can't do this on my own. Do you know how hard that is for an independant who has been self-sufficient since they were, like, eight?
So I've got two referrals to two different shrinks. That'll be another 2 doctors to my list of, what now, six? Go me.
So on Monday I am finding out how dumb I am. Actually, the WAIS (IQ test) is basically used to find out if you're underachieving. I hope it'll be fun.
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And I didn't even cheat!

Your clan is a dysfunctional one. That is because you are a Malkavian. Something is poisonous about this clan's blood that drives all those embraced to madness. However, in this madness, you tend to have great insight. Unfortunately, people just take it as senseless ramblings. In every family there is an insane one. You're it.

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While studying for Linguistics, I discovered that Dr. Seuss invented the word nerd. And seeing as how it's geek week, I think we should all celebrate.