Peripheral (nineveh_rains) wrote,

it's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you, but when we are apart I feel it too, and no matter what I do I feel the pain, with or without you.

I wanna go, I wanna fight, I wanna rush, I wanna run, I wanna see you again under the setting sun. We will kiss, we will laugh, we will be a part of what is said to be a union of the heart.

I want to fuck.
I want anything to purge this blackness from within me.
If not sex, then drugs.
I want cocaine.
I want to be truely lost so that I can stop wandering around trying to find myself, trying to damage myself, trying to pull you under with me in efforts to save myself.
I want to be rid of this undirected hate.
I want the impossible (to be in harmoniously reciprocated love - the stuff of fairytales).

If you know me at all, by now you'll realise that all of this is only idealised and never will be actualised.

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