You're pulling everyone away from me.
I know you have no clue.
But how can I stop thinking this way?
Mental illness is not rational.
You can't bleed it out with leeches,
or induce vomiting to exorcise the demons.
It is a poison.
It isn't like cancer, you can't burn it out,
or hope it clumps in one place to dig it out.
All you can do is one of two things:
1) Let it control you
2) Drug yourself up until you don't realise it's there
and tell yourself that you're becomming "normal" again.