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Blah [Jul. 15th, 2008|05:50 pm]
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I'm feeling depressed. Definately in the mood to binge and/or impulse buy, but can afford neither. Just went out to buy some bread. You know, I have a good time when I am with my friends, but it isn't like Hamilton. *sigh* I feel like my illness is all internalised and silenced but still lurking, just that people aren't around to see it. I'm gonna see if there are any public pools nearby. I had that shallow water swimming dream again. Man, I wish we could stay at Bass Lake all summer (yes, despite the bugs!)
My sister fixed my phone plan for me, my mom is buying content insurance for my apt.
Not much else to say, I guess.

Trisha, are we still on for tomorrow? I can call you when my appointment is finished if you want.
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From: moemoebean
2008-07-15 10:08 pm (UTC)
I have a doctor's appointment at 2:30 so if you can call me to see if I am home that would be great. Sorry I forgot about the appt I made a long time ago.
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[User Picture]From: nineveh_rains
2008-07-16 12:57 am (UTC)
Ah, shi- Mine's an hour before that. Guess we'll reschedule?
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From: moemoebean
2008-07-16 01:06 am (UTC)
ooh I guess so :(
next time we can go for tea on center street hmm?
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[User Picture]From: nineveh_rains
2008-07-16 07:36 pm (UTC)
Sounds good. My next appointment isn't until the end of August though. :/
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[User Picture]From: dagfari
2008-07-16 04:24 am (UTC)
I remembered the dream I had that I forgot when you woke me up.

I dreamed that I woke up and you were sleeping on the floor. When I asked you why you were sleeping on the floor, you said it was because I shoved you out of bed.

I said I didn't, and you went "oh. well I'll stay here anyway I like it here"

then I wake up and you are not sleeping on the floor
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[User Picture]From: nineveh_rains
2008-07-16 07:39 pm (UTC)
This reinforces my theory that dreams are just alternate dimensions/realities, cuz that is definately something that could have happened (but didn't).
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[User Picture]From: loccster
2008-07-16 04:50 am (UTC)
you'd be surprised at how cheap drugs are, that's usually the best bet
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[User Picture]From: nineveh_rains
2008-07-16 07:37 pm (UTC)
I wouldn't know a dealer if one walked up to me and tried to sell me something. *sigh*
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[User Picture]From: dreamaway820
2008-07-16 04:21 pm (UTC)
I feel like my illness is all internalised and silenced but still lurking, just that people aren't around to see it.

I know what you mean. Not many people see the "borderline" me and when I say I am having a hard time and hurting they just don't understand or take me seriously, which makes it even harder. Sometimes I feel like I am punished for being functional if you know what I mean.
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[User Picture]From: nineveh_rains
2008-07-16 07:41 pm (UTC)
Yeah, today my therapist asked if my borderline was still in remission... I don't see it that way, but I guess he does. I haven't been acting out, so I told him yes.
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