||[Sep. 15th, 2007|12:09 am]
Too many thoughts. I'm thinking about my exes and second-guessing myself about everything. Wondering "Was/is he the one?" Wondering which of them believe in second chances and which of them have written me off for good. I'm wondering if I'll ever be able to settle down, or will I always be running off to something newer and better? Wondering why it can't be enough that she loves me. But then, is it ever enough from anyone? Why can't I be satisfied with what comes to me? Really, for once I'd like to be able to remain satisfied with a relationship. But, knowing me, with my wants changing every time the wind changes direction, I'll forever be flitting between one person and the next. My therapist thinks the solution to this, is to find a partner who understands my tendency to wander. Could that ever possibly work?