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[01 Nov 2012|09:13pm] |
The best way of looking at this is to realize that anyone who is consistently unwilling to make time for you is unworthy of *your* time.
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| Titanic Extreme |
[16 Mar 2010|12:18am] |
Originally I was going to call it Titanic 2.0, but it is much more than that.
Just watched (the movie) 2012. Very reminiscent of Titanic. Thought of it many many times while watching. I also was not expecting it to be as emotional as I found it. I only rate it 3 out of 5 though, as the story was good, but the visual effects (especially considering the budget) were on the verge of cheesy, some scenes moreso than others.
This could be a weird visual association thing I have, but John Cussack really reminds me of Bill Murray. I spent the entire film thinking he had to be related.
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| Been a pretty good day so far. |
[15 Mar 2010|03:38pm] |
Other than my ankle aching, today has been pretty good. I did have to pull myself out of bed, but succeeded.
Had a great cab driver, so I didn't have to wait after my appointment.
Was starting to disassocite before therapy but the session went well.
Even the dream I had about my ex (that she gave birth to a daughter) didn't really bother me. She was upset that her fiance wasn't there, and I kept explaining that it was still his baby even if I was there when she was born... It was something she needed to be reassured of in the dream.
Feeling super tired (brain/eyes) but also hungry. And I wish my ankle would stop hurting. One day down, five more to go until the big adventure.
Today is also "fred" & mine's 9th monthaversary. Wondering if he'll remember lol.
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| Does this annoy anyone else? |
[12 Mar 2010|10:26pm] |
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Since I was a pre-teen and first learned about eating disorders, that's what E.D. stood for. Now, over the past few years, "erectile dysfunction" is taking claim to that acronym. Why? Get your own fucking label. Is the word "impotence" too embarassing?
Argh, just in a really ranty mood right now.
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[12 Mar 2010|09:56pm] |
Haven't updated much lately as my mood is still out of whack.
Still working away on my iTunes library.
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| My rant about Chapters. |
[07 Mar 2010|06:37pm] |
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All they have in-store is the popular stuff (ie. Twilight, HarryPotter, etc. - stuff that you can buy at WALMART!) What is the point of having a HUGE bookstore if you only carry %20 of your "stock"? Like, everything I was looking for was "not available in store". If I wanted to shop online, I wouldn't have bothered coming to the store in the first place... And it's not obscure or old editions either that I was looking for. *sigh*
The book store has really let me down. I didn't really need to buy any books anyway, since I (still!) have so many I haven't read yet, but it would be nice to be able to find stuff you're looking for.
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| Someone Who Cares |
[06 Mar 2010|09:34pm] |
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Every street in this city
Is the same to me
Everyone's got a place to be
But there's no room for me
Am I to blame?
When the guilt and the shame hang over me
Like a dark cloud,
That chases you down in the pouring rain.
It's so hard to find someone
Who cares about you,
But it's easy enough to find someone
Who looks down on you
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?
When it's easy enough to find someone
Who looks down on you
It's not what it seems
When you're not on the scene
There's a chill in the air
But there's people like me
That nobody sees so nobody cares
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?
When it's easy enough to find someone
Who looks down on you
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who can keep it together
When you've come undone?
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?
I swear this time it won't turn out
The same 'cause now I've got myself to blame
And you'll know where we'll end up
On the streets that is easy enough
To find someone who looks down on you
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?
When it's easy enough to find someone
Who looks down on you
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who can keep it together
When you've come undone?
Why is it so hard to find someone
Who cares about you?
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| chapters.indigo.ca |
[06 Mar 2010|08:20pm] |
$5 off any online purchase of $35 or more. Valid until March 31, 2010.
Comment if you are interested and I will email you the coupon code.
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[03 Mar 2010|03:42pm] |
"Usually, the more attached you are to something, the less likely you are of getting it. The craving makes you irrational and unfocused."
What's so wrong with being wild and free? I am tired of society's restrictions.
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| I should be sleeping. |
[03 Mar 2010|01:52am] |
Just had an intense emotional conversation. On the upswing, but still other thoughts keep coming into my head. Like, how Dang was always able to distract me from this darkness. And how much I miss my mom. How much I miss the hospital/being drugged. I will never be part of society, not in the way you were describing.
Right now I miss my room in Dundas. I miss staying up til 5am playing solitaire, chatting on ICQ, and listening to "Coast to Coast".
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[03 Mar 2010|01:40am] |
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The minister at the funeral home told me I would "set the world on fire".
What do you suppose he meant by that? I'm guessing it wasn't pyromania...
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| Day 29 - Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days |
[02 Mar 2010|10:09pm] |
I really hope to pay off all my debts this year.
I hope things work out re: Stephanie & Gizmo
I hope to get my iTunes updated and organised (currently working on "D" albums)
I hope things work out with me and "Fred"
I can't wait to see my mom when she gets home
Working on the 50 Book Challenge again this year (not doing very well so far)
That's all I can come up with right now. I'm not in a very good frame of mind to be making plans.
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| Desiderata |
[01 Mar 2010|11:58pm] |
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
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| Day 28 - This year, in great detail |
[01 Mar 2010|03:26pm] |
If you want "great detail" you'll just have to re-read my entires from Jan 1st til now, cuz that's probably more than I can even remember right now.
It is the year 2010, can you believe it? It used to seem so futuristic, yet here we are (and still no teleportation!)
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| Day 27 - This month, in great detail |
[28 Feb 2010|06:46pm] |
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Well, I am not good at remembering details very well. Spent Valentine's Day with Mike. We went out the night before - played arcade games, he won me an mp3 player - and we saw Wolfman. Mike ended up getting sick and of course I got it 2 days later. What a lovely gift!
Spent the next week in bed dealing with the cold. My grandmother passed away on the 22 early AM and I've spent the majority of the past week dealing with that.
My computer fucked up, so I've been reinstalling everything. I have housing issues that I have to deal with tomorrow. My friends have been great. Saw Shutter Island yesterday with Jamie.
Still very tired.
Just doing this to finish it off and kill time while waiting for software to download.
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| Visitation & Services |
[22 Feb 2010|11:03pm] |
Visitation & Funeral at the same place:
M.A. Clark & Sons Funeral Home Ltd.
567 Upper Wellington Street
Hamilton, ON
(905) 383-3323
Visitation: Wednesday, February 24 : 2-4pm & 7-9pm
Service: Thursday, February 25 : 11am
Obit will be in Hamilton Spectator tomorrow and Wednesday. (Helen Maslovskis)
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| mana vecmāmiņ |
[22 Feb 2010|08:34am] |
Rest In Peace
Helena J. Maslovskis (née Brookāns)
May 21, 1925 - February 22, 2010
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